apologies

For those of you waiting to hear the rest of the story I am sorry for not posting for so long .  We are deeply in the thick of things and I think that I might have something important to say but then we take another horrific turn in this journey and I don't know what I believe .  This is the essence of living through this however, I think I know something about God, about mental illness, about substance abuse, about parenting only to find out I was yet again mistaken.  Pray for me that I find some sure footing, and the voice to continue to speak.